Happiness

Happiness depends on two?
Oh what do we do,
If it depends on two?
I believe you need a bit of a clue,
Happiness is not dependant on two,
Two will not do.

Happiness depends on you.

Happiness depends on one,
That's how it's done,
It comes from one.
Your happiness, joy, love and fun,
Have all begun
With a single one.

It all depends on one.

Tomorrow Night

So funny story... While I was writing this one I was listening to music on Pandora, and a song came on. The song was "I've got my love to keep me warm". I found this ironic. Haha but anyway, enjoy the poem :)

I knew this room was cold,
But it's bite is settling in,
And baby you're not here,
To warm my chilling summer skin.

I want your arms around me,
I want to feel your steady breath,
I want to snuggle up beside you,
And hear the beating from your chest.

You bring me a feeling of comfort,
But it's one I've hardly known,
A sweet and pleasant feeling,
Of not feeling so alone.

My hands are feeling lonely,
My arms are awfully cold,
This must be that longing
From a heart that has been sold.

So I'll lay here on my bed,
And while I think of you tonight,
I'll pretend that I'm right next to you,
Waiting to be held so tight.

And maybe you'll be here....
Tomorrow night.

The Devil's Craft... Learn to Fight Back.

Thoughts are lingering,
In the shallow, empty spaces
That are encased inside myself.
Finding them, -growing, thriving-
Controlling my motives.

I am confused.

I am lost.

These thoughts are consuming my motivation.
Destroying my inner peace.

Can I do this? My power is gone...
My feelings of terror continue to press on.

No.

No more.
This is my choice.

Leave me.
Let me be.
I'm sick of your negativity.

You cannot tell me what I cannot do.
I'm tired and I'm hurt, but I can still pull through.

Go ahead, test me. I dare you to try.
I'm going to keep fighting till the day that I die.

My measure is one that cannot be contained.
No limits, no boundaries- No more playing this game!

If I can't deal with you I don't deserve that great prize,
I'm breaking the chain, say your final goodbyes.

I'm never done.

I will press on.

Vengeance?

... It's been a while since I have posted anything, so I am just going to share one of those random poems I wrote. This one is more about the sound than the meaning. (meaning that I just basically had random words come into my head and wrote them down) so enjoy! :)

The creases and folds
of our minds foretold
the vengeance we soon shall gain

And the sands on the earth
Shall quiver and quake
As we reemerge from our endeavoring pain

The patches in time
and the bitter sweet wine
Held the key to the beneficial end

Yet we plotted and craved-
with the sorrows we saved-
To unleash that ruthless old friend.

My Heart's Story

This is one of my not so happy poems, but I thought I would share it with you anyway! Haha enjoy? :)

My Heart's Story

Crack my ribs open and pull out my heart;
It's torn and it's broken, and it's falling apart.

It needs a few stitches from a firm gental hand,
to mend it and help it to beat right again.

Right now it's not perfect; or close to at that,
I can feel that it's slipping... It's fading out fast.

My heart just need someone to help it beat right,
All on it's own it doesn't put up a fight.

It won't fight for love, it won't fight for emotion,
But someday it will because of someones devotion

To help me grow stronger and to help me fight back,
At the fear of rejection or the courage I lack.

For now it beats weakly inside of my chest,
To endure through the hardest of time's brutal test.

Ranting. Because it's good for the soul.

Well today I just need to rant about random crap. Because I am rather irritated right now. (Don't get me wrong, I love my family so much, but right now I am a bit irritated)

First, my parents have moved the big screen upstairs. This irritates me. Why? Because the upstairs living room is for family to sit around and talk, not for watching stuff on a giant big screen. It belongs in the den for people to play rock band and watch football with the sound system. Big screens and sound systems and gaming go hand in hand... Family talking and big screen? not so much. Also, I don't think my mother is going to like it much when me and my friend are all sitting in the family room watching movies and yelling and playing around late at night. She says it will be fine, but I don't think she will be as okay with it when there is popcorn on the floor and soda bottles on her table. Maybe that is just me. Whatever. Am I crazy to think that the big TV belongs in the den? It just fits better.

Mostly I am just irritated that I feel like my parents refuse to listen to me. Believe it or not I can think logically. Maybe we just have a huge communication issue. That might be because I don't want to sound like a brat when I talk to them, so I never get to say everything I want to. Like about the whole getting a permit thing, or getting a job. (see how bratty I sound? It irritates me. I can't say anything without beign a moody stupid teenager)

I just don't feel like I fit in the family. I hate doing things with family that involve technology (TV, for example, making the whole TV upstairs thing worse). I hate it when they talk about World of Warcraft. I hate it when I am the only one there who isn't an adult. I hate it when I can't do anything because I am just a kid. I hate it when my brothers say stuff that makes me feel like I am just their inferior little sister who doesn't know anything. I hate it when I feel like I can't be noticed for anything. I'm not married or having kids, I just am not fitting in here. This is why I wish I had little siblings, or someone closer to my age.

Yup. That about sums it up for right now.

I Am

Well my friend showed me a nifty little site for what's called an "I Am" Poem. I liked it quite a bit! So I decided to share mine with you.

I Am

I am loyal and genuine
I wonder if others see my flaws
I hear your troubled past
I see the potential you have
I want to help those in a way no other can
I am loyal and genuine

I pretend I'm almost perfect.
I feel the drive to do what's right
I touch the lives of others through example
I worry if I do enough
I cry for all my missed chances
I am loyal and genuine

I understand that it's more complicated that I know
I say "You know I'm always here"
I dream about being with someone
I try to help it hurt less
I hope you love me as much as I love you
I am loyal and Genuine


Here is the link if you want to make your own nifty poem :)
http://ettcweb.lr.k12.nj.us/forms/iampoem.htm