Short and Sweet

The George Michael saxophone prank (thanks for that Zach), Hot Kool-Aid in the hotel room (thank you Jasmine!) and clinitions that sound like the dad in Finding Nemo. That's what Band tour is made of. Well, that and plenty of awesome rehearsal time. I have to say it was a unique experience, something I won't forget for some years to come. I feel like I improved a lot, but there is always room for more improvement. I love you band! :) I don't know what I would do without you guys.

Bag of Goodness and the Shape of Hate

I now know the cause of my social insanity! Or at least I am beginning to understand all of it.

Here it goes.

I hate social circles. I hate limiting myself to a certain group of people, because then people feel left out, or there isn't enough variety, or you get sick of each other or other such problems. But the reason social circles exist is because the people within them all get along. They are comfortable with the others in the group and can feel at ease for social gatherings. Which is how these circles are formed.

Just because I hate these social circles does not mean I wouldn't like to be involved in them though. And by that I mean I would like to be invited to do things with various circles. I just don't want to be a part of only one circle. I would love to participate in activities with groups A, B, 3, Q, 082cx and other. Just as long as I am not obligated to do EVERYTHING, ALL THE TIME with them.

The thing is that I want to be able to mix all my close friends into one circle that isn't really a circle of it's own. Just a group of people that is comfortable with one another, but not pressured into being close with everyone in that group. It's like... Sweet and Salty Honey Chex Mix. Or whatever the heck it is. The Bag of Goodness. (see diagram below)

Each piece on it's own is freakin tasty, but all together they are ultra tasty as well. They can be in the same bag together, but they can also go be in their individual pretzel bag, or their chex cereal box. They are like "Hey, I'm cool. I would love to hang out with that weird graham cracker thing and that pretzel tonight! But I think next weekend I will just chill with the rice chex for a bit. Maybe party it up with the corn ones later." You know what I mean?

It just makes me sad that sometimes people think they can't get along because they are from other social circles. Why the heck not try to get along with someone you don't know? It's part of the fun!

All in all, I just wish I could have my bag of goodness, and eat it too.

Love,
Tom

Ride the Waves

I'm going to get away for a while. Even if it's only in my dreams.

I'll find a way to visit that sandy beach again. I'll get back to those waters and try surfing, standing on my own feet while the waves push me back to shore, where I will find friendly faces that welcome me back, even if my ride wasn't successful. I'll paddle back out, and wait for the right wave to come so I can try again and again to stand up on my own until I get it right.

It's funny how this is like an analogy for life.

I miss surfing. I only did it once, but I loved it. More than that, I loved being there with what I claim as my family. I miss that whole trip. I miss those wonderful people and the great times I had with them.

I know I haven't always been the best, but I want to have that back again. I'm sorry I'm such a punk. Let's just go back to how things were. Deal?

Stuffs 'N More Stuffs

Well, here's a bunch of random thoughts I've been saving up for the past few days. Here ya go.

#1 I realized yesterday that I will, sometime in the next 10 years (or so) I will have to change my name due to marriage. I always knew that someday my last name would change, but it suddenly hit me yesterday... I will be Mrs. (insert new last name here)... for the rest of my life. Little kids will learn my name as Mrs. So and so instead of Thomas. This kind of makes me a little sad... I like my last name. It's boring to some I suppose, but I rather enjoy it. It fits me.

#2 I soo wish I could sing well. I can sing a tune, but not well. I wish I could sing jazz, like the song the jazz band performs called "Misty". I have fallen in love with that song. It makes me feel like cuddling and being in love. (Just for the record, I am so jealous of her voice... That is a voice that has some serious power.) But hey, maybe I'll improve, I am trying out for a capella after all. Woo?

#3 I have no idea what I am particularly good at. I do lots of stuff, but I am not really good at any one thing. I love music, art, writing, science, being physically active, and as much as I hate to admit it, I kind of like math when I understand it and I can do it. But I am not amazing at any of that. I need to just pick something and become great at it. Any votes?

#4 My social life is all over the place. Why is it that when one thing settles down something else is stirred up? I don't get it. But whatever! I am happy with my crazy life!

#5 I have the ability to be good at stuff, I just haven't tried to be really good at anything. Gah... I miss the days when I was one of the best at the things I did with just natural ability. Too bad I never kept up on anything I did. Meh, now I just have to work even harder to be good at something.

#6 I think I might actually totally love martial arts. I've only done it once so far, but I really liked it. And I totally need to be able to defend myself. So we will see where that goes.

#7 If you actually read this blog, you should comment on this and say something. It doesn't even have to be related. I am just curious as to who actually reads this junk. Because it's kinda pointless usually. But I love you! :D

Love,
Tom

Today Was My Day

Oh thank you. Thank you for today. I needed today so very badly. I can't even begin to tell you how great it was.

So I was sick-ish on tuesday, which means that I had my share of hiding away for a while. No school and tons of sleep makes for a happy Hannah... er, Tom. Whatever. Essencially, I had my day to refresh. I then had my day to try go get back into the groove of things, which was Wednesday. It was a pretty okay day, after only 4 hours of sleep that is. And then today comes along and I feel amazing. I was productive, I felt smart, I spent time with one of my best friends, I felt together and at peace. Man! I feel so dang good! And tomorrow will be fantastic too! :D


Thank you world. Thank you friends. I love you.

Tom

Denmark and Malaysia

I slept wayy to much today. Like... 7 hours that I was supposed to be in school. Yeah. At least now I have motivation to work on my grades! I have hope now!! :D Anyway, on to the real subject.

Have you guys ever looked at the stats on your blog? You know, where you can see what areas of the world people are viewing your blog form? I took a look at it today and saw that besides the USA (obviously), these two wonderful countries read my blog! 33 and 39 views! Yay them! So here's to you guys.

Dear Denmark and Malaysia,

Thanks for reading my blog! I have no idea what makes this at all interesting to read (for anyone really), but I am glad you have read this random thing. You guys rock! :D

With love,
Tom

Call Me if You Need Me

How about I just hide away for the next few weeks? Sounds better all the time. It's quite possible that I could solve quite a few problems by just not exsisting for awhile. I feel as though I do more harm then help for my friends and family, so I'll just go lie in bed for the next forever. When someone wants me, they can come take me away and we can go have our own time. Until that time arrives, I will sleep, maybe do homework, eat food and watch movies. Movies full of happiness.

Cars Just Hate Me.

Today was my crash day. I feel like I've been pushing to keep going through the whole week just to get to the weekend, and now that I have finally done it, I have run out of energy. Thank goodness for Sundays, because I need to recover.

In other news, I have come to the conclusion that I should never buy a new car. You know why? Because I will somehow manage to break it.

Example one:

About a month ago, I had to take the truck so I could go to some event just up the street. My mom wanted me to drive because it was cold and dark, and she is a little paranoid sometimes. I began to pull out of the drive way when I realized I still had the break on. So I pull the handle to release it... and it snaps off. The plastic part just snapped off of the lever. What the...!? Luckily, you can still use the break, but you have to pull on the metal part instead of on the no-longer-existant handle.

Example two:

Yesterday, I was all ready to go to the Backstage Jazz Night, which is one of my favorite nights of the whole school year. I felt pretty good about the day, and this was only going to make the day better! So I asked my dad if he wanted me to take the red convertable -the car I am supposed to drive- and he said yes. So I got in the car and turned the key when I thought to myself "Hey! It's pretty nice outside right now! Why not just put the top down? It'll make the night even better!"...
It would have, if the back window didn't shatter in the process. That broke my heart a little bit on the inside.

So never let me buy a brand new car, because I'll probably just break it. Yay me....

At least the jazz night was awesome. Go jazz band, I love you.

With Love,
Tom.

Now that I see You

I adore this song. It's been stuck in my head all day, because I just feel great. And it is just an amazing song! Next song I need to learn on guitar? I think yes.


Rapunzel:
All those days
Watching from the windows
All those years
Outside looking in
All that time
Never even knowing
Just how blind I've been

Now I'm here
Blinking in the starlight
Now I'm here
Suddenly I see
Standing here
It's oh, so clear
I'm where I'm meant to be

And at last, I see the light
And it's like the fog has lifted
And at last, I see the light
And it's like the sky is new
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once
Everything looks different
Now that I see you

Flynn:
All those days
Chasing down a daydream
All those years
Living in a blur
All that time
Never truly seeing
Things the way they were
Now she's here
Shining in the starlight
Now she's here
Suddenly I know
If she's here
It's crystal clear
I'm where I'm meant to go

Flynn/Rapunzel:
And at last, I see the light

Flynn:
And it's like the fog has lifted

Flynn/Rapunzel:
And at last, I see the light

Rapunzel:
And it's like the sky is new

Flynn/Rapunzel:
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once
Everything is different
Now that I see you
Now that I see you